The one and only- Carrie Bradshaw

Can I talk about this for a minute? Anyone out there start reading Fifty Shades of Grey, as I did, without knowing it is sadomasochism porn? That might be extreme...I've only just come to the sex scenes.  But where is this going? I admit, I like a good romantic love story (re: Nora Roberts).  But leather rooms full of whips and chains and ...well read for yourself if you wish.  I haven't decided if I am going to finish it or not.  I am a bit of a nerd though and usually force myself to finish any book I've started. Plus, Grey sounds hot.

Flying Time

Time goes too fast. Yesterday felt like Monday and today is Thursday. And yet, I don't know what I want it to slow down for.  It really all comes down to the fact that I want to live; right here, in this moment, to the fullest.  It's hard to do that when you're working a full time job and trying to make a name out of nothing for yourself.  I leave my house at 6 am, hit the gym until 7:45 and head to work.  I leave between 5:30 and 6:30 and will make it home usually before 8pm.  How much time does that leave me for living? I guess that's when the saying "if you love what you do, you'll never work a day in your life," comes into play.  And it's true for the most part.  I love what I do and I don't mind getting up that early.  Although it would be nice to be home sooner, to be able to have that extra day time for friends and being social.  But I want time to slow down? Why do I feel like I'm wasting time? What am I waiting for that I want time to slow down so it can get here first? It's hard to admit this, but sometimes I get afraid life will be taken too early from me and there is so much more I want to do.  I've been in such a state of gypsy that I forget  my life is not in limbo.  Time doesn't need to slow down, because I'm doing the most I can with what I have.  

One of the biggest longings I have is to share life with others.  I have experienced so much this year, traveled incredible distances, met incredible people, but I haven't had someone to share the whole journey with.  I've have different people in different places fulfilling my life, but no constant.  I update my friends and family, but it isn't the same.  I want someone to experience it with me, to see what I see and share the same memories.  Life doesn't mean much until you share it with others, right? Now that I feel confidently independent and free, it's time to let someone else in.  A scary thought for someone so comfortable on her own. I long for that sense of companionship and fear it with a passion remembering the heartache of leaving friends, boyfriends and them leaving me.  The crushingly hollow feeling after someone important has gone away is enough to make anyone apprehensive to let someone that close again.  So here is my challenge to myself- let it happen. Don't force it.  Don't be afraid of it. But go slow.  Let the constants find their way in and hold them there.

Designing my Bedroom!

Not so into the bedding...but the side table and wicker headboard are just lovely.  I'm thinking beach house...

Something about classic White----clean and cozy

I'm moving apartments which is an excellent opportunity to update my bedroom. I have always been obsessed with the color champagne (probably because it is off white and as you know..I love the color white.) In a renter's dream world, I would be able to paint my walls a light metallic blue. Since renters don't usually get to dream, some punch of color needs to come through in the form of wall decoration. What do you think? Here are some of my favorite bedrooms...

Re-Designing my Bedroom! by aegrog11 on polyvore.com

Harlow Nightstand
$1,409 - neimanmarcus.com

Tristan Dresser
$1,399 - neimanmarcus.com

Amri Rug, 5'6" x 8'6"
$529 - neimanmarcus.com

Voluspa 'Classic Maison - Laguna' 2-Wick Candle
$16 - nordstrom.com

1STDIBS.COM - Coco House - 1920's European Sunburst Mirror
1stdibs.com

Kitchen Update

A great way to update your kitchen is re-doing the cabinets and counter tops.  I am going through this with my mom as she searches for the most cost efficient way to give our kitchen an updated and nicer look!

 I always love walking into Home Depot (mind you I was in Arizona) and being greeted with flowers!

 Comparing counter tops to cabinetry

 

My Last night, I took a little stroll around my parent's neighborhood.  It was so clear, and cool and beautiful out.  I forget how much I love Arizona.  Until next time