I am the master of my fate; I am the captain of my soul.

 

I've been repeating this to myself. Over and over.  It sounds easy-- it's your life and you have control over it, your happiness, your destiny.  But why do I always feel like I'm waiting for something?  Waiting for the decisions to be made for me? How do I take things into my own hands without throwing away opportunity?

 

Beach Life.  My company is moving to Florida.  We are currently located in Chicago, so convincing 200 Midwesterners that Florida is calling their name... harder than you think.

 I'm very transient. I'm not from Chicago. I'm not from Florida.  I have lived in more than 5 states in the past two years and there are 2 places I call home.  Florida has never been on my list. But I love my job and when opportunity comes knocking, shouldn't I open the door?  Then again, is this an opportunity to do something else?  How do you know... Redargless, I wouldn't hate living on the beach..

 But I'll miss the need for a cozy fire.  This room, while clean and light, doesn't scream Florida to me.

I can't tell you where the obsession came from, but I am obsessed with Tree Houses.  Something about being closer to the stars, suspended in the fresh air, a miniscule feeling of floating....

These feelings might be hiding quietly within my childhood soul, buzzing whenever I spy a house up high.

 

 If true tree houses could not be so, I dig this modern day feel.

 But can you imagine living here.... a bubble in the sky, oh my.

 Or a quite spot above a creek.

 Needs no explanation. Suspended living room? Dreamyyyyy

Not quite a tree house, but overall chill.

Fresh white flowers, no matter the time of year, make my heart skip a beat.

 

New home, new room

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Ming Medicine Chest - Antique Black
orientalfurniture.com

Indulgence 2 Bombe Side Table - 9 Colours
$520 - alexanderandpearl.co.uk

Hotel Collection Satin Stripe single duvet cover set cream
$56 - houseoffraser.co.uk

Original Seascape Painting, Calm Sea, Ocean Painting, Blue Sky Fine...
etsy.com

Diptyque Roses Mini Scented Candle 70g
$30 - liberty.co.uk

Cost Plus World Market Madras Square Basket
worldmarket.com

White 3-Layer Capiz Lotus Candle Holder (silver edged)
lunabazaar.com

Hello again

I haven't been here in a while.  And by here, I mean this space where I can write feely, feel openly, and thinking about what is really going on in my life.  The truth is, the wheels are spinning and the days are flying, but I'm not entirely sure I'm making progress in my life.  Does every day need to be about progress? And what does progress really mean?  New friendships? I've developed a couple of those.  New health plan? I've started that as well.  New meaning? I'm not sure.  I have things to look forward to.  Mostly going to Leland, visitng friends and family.  But I dread the day summer official ends and these visits don't occur for another year.  I dread the time spent away from those who make me most happy.  So what does that leave me with? I guess that leaves me with today.  What am I going to do today to make it a day worth living, worth smiling, and worth remmebering?  One day at a time? I think I can do that.
 

Birthday ideas

My birthday is just around the corner.  I have never been big on birthdays, ever.  It has always, somehow, someway left me heartbroken and disappointed. But last year I took back my birthday and... it was amazing.  So this year I am not so much on a kick to make it the BEST, but definitely to make it special.  So, why not start looking for desserts a month in advance! Option 1. I don't like cake.  I just don't.  I LOVE frosting and I love flowers.  So if I can enjoy those two things, I think everyone else will enjoy the cake enough for me.